again..why?

im not trying to point to YOU..its just i dont get it..why are u being so selfish?


mama have been paying everything..
everytime i went back home..she always take us out..dinner..

tak kira ke?

we are ur kids papa..we should be your priority...

i dont give a damn bout ur card..how many MONTH u dont bring us out?..have u ever count that?how many time u brought us out?sekali?..tu pun nk bsing?

ur card is out of my bussiness..bukan nye papa belanja kami pun..ur money abis kat tmpt lain and i dont give a shit bout that..

u can ask others...ur friend kids perhaps..ask them..the total amount that u gave us is it enough fot them?..ask them...

mmg adik kurang kasih syg seorg bapa..
u totally forget bout adik..
and yes..i am totally dissoopintedd with you..

mmg adik jelous tgk org lain ade bapak..jln dgn bapak dorg..
adik??..org lain sume ade ayah
i do have fren who is broken family just like me..
but still..thier dad never forget bout them..
and yes..even thier parents saperated but still..thier parents being fair to their kids...
i am sad because we were close to each other...
and u know that rite..?
dont u ever think bout me papa?

how many month we dont meet?..hv u ever think bout that?have u ever think bout ur daughter??HAVE U?..

i miss my dad so much..
i can bet u even forget my birthday kan...
entah2 my full name u cant even remember..



nevermind..

org sebelah sana mesti bace kan kan kann?..silakan sampai dekat sane..sebar2 kan..saya mmg mengalu-alu kan...anda hendak menganjingkn pun silakan...
bumi ni bulat..tak sampai sebulan pun dpt la balik...


engkau nak caci ke nak ape suke hati..this is MY BLOG and ive even written THERE..ITS ABOUT MYLIFE..engkau itu golongan org yg tak tau ape itu kasih sayang,ape itu keluarga,dan mereka yg tidak tahu menilai erti keluarga..

jikalau anda pernah hilang seseorg yg anda sayang..
u will know how does it feel..

mmg suatu ketika dulu adik seronok..
ade mama,ada papa..ada kakak..ape2 semua sama2...every month papa bwk travel sini sane..
saturday or friday nite dinner ramai2..
saturday papa kejut kul 6.30 solat subuh then siap2 g jogging..
malam2 kite g tgk wayang midnite movie..
xpun lepak kat bilik papa..
adik dgn kakak terjun atas katil papa dgn mama..
nnti kul 12-1 am..adik comlpain lapar..
papa mesti masak meggi gorg xpun nasik grg kaler hijau which is my fav..
pastu tdo..kadang adik dgn kakak ngade2 tdo bilik papa..haha!:P
kadang2 papa bwk g picnic..papa bakar ayam,adik tukang abiskn!
mama buat sandwhich!
kalau angkat2 brg,papa mesti xkasik adik bwk berat2..adik duk diam2..jage brg..hee:P..
teringt time adik baru masuk sekolah..darjah satu..
papa amek cuti 1 week..just for the sake nak jage adik kat sekolah..
teman adik mkn during recess..
pastu balik nnti bwk g mkn kat kedai mamak..
nnti mlm b4 tdo mesti papa check sume homework adik..:D
pastu time kakak ade tournement taekwando..
papa pun ikut sekali g sane gi sini..support kakak..

time mama keje dulu..papa bwk adik dgn kakak jalan2 sementara nak tunggu mama abis kerja..
kite pergi mines wonderland..time tu seronok..sume lengkap..xde masalah pun..papa bwk adik dgn kakak g main mechine slot kat situ..pastu ade insiden yg sgt kelakar..hahahhah!..pastu mama abis jer keje mama pulak bwk g dinner kat bwh office mama..mkn top hat..which is our fav..sume pun suke mende tu...mama ajar makan bende tu!sedap!.

and during you were in oversea..papa mesti call ckp dgn adik dgn kakak..pastu papa hantar birthday card..postcard la..mcm2!..2 week before u went back..papa mesti tanye kakak nk ape..adik papa xtanye sbb papa tau adik suke main ape..papa belikan adik barbie..tp kakak papa belikn dia gameboy la pistol air la ape la..boyish nye game..but mine semua nyee girlish..haha!..

and adik still remember..during SPM..dpt result..mlm tu trus gi dinner..then ikut papa travel here and there!seronok sgt2!..cuz u know..i love to travel here and there..and its been quite number of time..papa rajin bawak adik ikut papa g sane sini bila papa kne buat lawatan..:)...everytime g sini sane ade je adik buat hal..pintu terkunci la..padahal dinner dah nk start in about 5 mins pulak tu..hahaah!..kasut sebelah tinggal kat kl la..tertuka beg la time kat airport..HAHAHA!..apela..swimming suit tertinggal la..pastu papa bwk g the nearest supermarket just for the sake of nk belikan swimming suit adik..hahahha!..

i am close with papa..but...that was before..back 17 years before...
now everything has changed..


..pada papa bende tu semua dah xde makne..u even said it..and its still fresh in my mind pa..

adik sangat terase..
hilang papa..
hilang perhatian drpd papa..
hilang kasih sayang papa...


u will feel LOST,EMPTYNESS...especially when u lose someone which really important in your life..i bet in everyone life..
ibu,ayah,kakak,abang,adik..