wats going on with life...???

well...im home at this moment..be back to my "home"..tomorrow..hmmm..i dont know why..so many miracle things happen in mylife...and its really sucks!!!!!!!!!...

now..its confirm..my parents need to be a DA in aussie...haaaaaaAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!i dont wanna go..but my sis she's really getting super xcited...

i told..one of my "BIGBRO.."..and this is wat he told me to do..be honest to myself..and..write all of it..the reason why..i dont wanna go..soo..heres it goes..

why i dont wanna follow....


as u read my older post..i keep on talking bout my koala..some might know waht is it all about..if u wanna noe more..just go thru evrythin then u'll know..hmmm..1st..its bcuz of my koala..i've asked him..to try as hard as he can..to get a place over here..and continue koala studies here.....and koala did it..and koala managed to get it..and..he was really struggle to get this place...i asked him to thoe..hmmm..so..if u be me..how will u feel??he'l come here..and i move...isnt it BIADAP namenye?...2ndly..i just about to start a new life..yes..u guys might says..it same goes with aussie..nothing is effected..to me..YES..its a MATTER..i wanna hv a newlife with mr.koala...he was the one who..really give me the strength to be though..and he was with me...during my SUSAH time...and his the one who really make me forget all my past and gain my confident towards myself...to deal with all people around me...besides my fren..and rite








now..im in UNI..so i got NEW frenz..evrythings new..even..I AM NEW..he convince me..and give me the power to be a better person and make me..more mature..and i really thank to god..cuz gimme the SEMANGAT..to be waht i should be...i dont want to put big hope towards himself..and even..i really fall for him..and..i wanna start my newlife with him..not sumone else..yes..it is sumthin to do with LOVE thing..but..



im a normal human..just like all of u out there..and i wanna prove to my parents that..i can stand at my own feet..to be independent...and i want them to know then..i am matured now..and i can think..which is bad and which is good..i dont need thier trust cuz i know they wont..all i need right now..is just a lil faith..for me..and some space for me to breath..and please..let me chose waht i want in mylife...not just by considering waht they want..i know..mama n papa wants the best for me..but..i think..to hv the best for me is..guide me to the right path..lead me to the right way..not by ASKING me to do waht u like...i know..this kindda things i shudnt be posting..but its the truth..i write this..it come from the bottom of my heart..


if u think..u've been falling in love..i bet that u will know how i felt right now..if i can..i really wnna turn back the clock..and..do wat i supposed to do...yess..i really regret with what i've done before..and i think..god have punished me...thank u god...




well..i've watched kung fu panda right now..and i learn sumthin from the movie..even thoe its kindda FUNNY.. http://www.kungfupanda.com/?a=1&b=novel
but..theres sumthin i learn from it.. if u want sumthing to happen..u have..to belive with ur dream..believe in yourself..thats the most important....

now..koala is away for..1week..his having some vacation..happy holiday..and hope evrythongs will doing great...me manque mmmooooiii!!!!

watever it is..i need evryone..to help me..to let my dream happen..plz..to squissy..plz..understand my situation right now..and i know..how i feel right nowkn..



so..thanx to evryone who drop by at my blog..take care evryone..